Friday, May 4, 2012

What?! I have a blog?

Yes, it has been over a year since I blogged about anything. Just as I wrote the title to this blog post, Selah woke up from her nap and I thought, "this is exactly why I haven't blogged!" On my last blog post I had just found out I was pregnant with Selah (I didn't say it on there because I was still, well, adjusting to the news) and Nathan had just turned 1. Now, we have a house full of business and joy...Lily is 4, Nathan is 2 and beautiful Selah girl is a big 7 months old. (steve is even feeding her carrots in the kitchen as I write, while Lily is Selah's own personal cheerleader..."good job Selah! aren't those good carrots?"...) This past year has been one of adventure, trials, new things beginning and old things's really been quite a roller coaster, and I am pretty sure we are still on the ride :) In June we made the decision that I would stay home with the kids full time. With 3 kids under 4, I couldn't quite wrap my head around the idea of being at work full-time. I know lots of women do it everyday, but the thought of it ripped my heart out and we decided we would do what we had to in order to make it work. And so, I began the hardest job ever, as many of you have experienced. Selah was born September 18 and has pretty much been the easiest and happiest baby that has ever existed. Talk about a blessing. What would I have done if she was a fussy, needy baby?! Loved her just the same, but no one would have wanted to be around me...ever :) On March 25 (our 6th anniversary!) we had our last church service at Crosspoint. After 19 years as a church, the elders and church body came to the conclusion that it was time to be done. That last service was full of memories, sadness, peace, and knowledge that the Lord is in full control of our lives and our daily happenings. He is our provider, comforter and KING...and I am learning to submit to that more than ever. Now we are on the job hunt and enjoying our (hopefully) short-lived time of having TWO parents at home full-time. We aren't sure where God will take us on this journey for a job, but we are thankful for His provision and ever mindful that He is always at work within us. Today I read a great blog post (that you can read here ) It reminded me that my time as a mom is now, in the present. We have lots of hard days. Lots of days that seem unproductive and meaningless. But, to my kids they aren't meaningless! They are an opportunity to learn, to grow and to be loved, and to love, one another. So, I'm going to work on that. Being present and loving fully. Maybe I will blog more too...maybe.
Aren't they cute?!